Things I wish I were that 'Perfect'

Assalam.

I've always wondered how my life would be if I were more 'better' than my old self right now .

Would I be more motivated ? Yes.

Would I be more disciplined? Yes.

Would I be more successful? Yes.

Would I be more determined in getting all the good grades that I've always wanted? YES FARIHA!

You can get all the dreams you've always dreamt about.

Nothing or nobody is stopping you!

I know that ;(

I don't know how to make myself more motivated.

I know that if I work harder and the effort would be realistic.

I studied, scored the subjects, but there is one thing that keeps me less motivated.

I got this one subject, the only subject that leaves me terkontang-kanting.

There were only five students taking this subject in my class, because the other 20 classmates could not take it as they got no enough credit hour to take this.

I am blessed with beautiful, young lecturer. She'd come to me if I don't have a clue how's that nye situation.

As for the 5 classmates that I'm taking with, I am not close enough to them, plus dorang duduk luar. 

So the chances to get together and study subject ni macam impossible la.

Ok I know ni macam ngengada la taknak carik alternative laen la.

Yes I got a roommate taking this sub too.

Anyway, I realized that I tend to hold secrets rather than tell my friends.

I don't really tell.